The past week and a half has flown by very quickly and I still can’t seem to fathom that I’m already in a stage of my life where I’m married and have two children. I guess I just don’t feel old or mature enough, and after spending this time with a newborn I can’t believe how quickly time flew by with our first. It seems like just yesterday she was as small as Emory.
Since Emory was born, I’ve never changed more diapers in my life (both are currently in diapers – eeeeek!), felt more sleep deprived and scarfed down my food faster, but through it all my heart has never been fuller. While it seems like sometimes I barely have time to think or have enough energy to finish my sentences, this time with my family has allowed me to reflect on God’s abundant blessings and how sweet and precious life can be. I can’t praise God enough for the three hearts I love the most and the ways they have each allowed me to reach new depths of emotion.
First, there’s Emmy boy – our sweet second who’s too young to show me any affection at all, but still melts my heart with every squeak and smile while he dreams. I knew even before he was born that I would love him very much because so many moms write and speak about your heart expanding with every child. When he’s in my arms, he’s already teaching me to slow down and savor moments and he reminds me of the powerful bond a mother and baby share. He’s our baby and the child we couldn’t wait to have and I’m so thankful we were able to grow our family and give Peyton a little brother, and so my heart continues to expand with Emory Ellis.
Then there’s our daughter, Peyton Mae. The spunkiest, goofiest, most curious big sister in the world. I have been so impressed by the way she’s handled having a newborn in the house – it speaks so much to her thoughtful, caring nature and desire to be a big sister. She’s adapted to this change better than my husband, Emory or I have. She wakes up in the morning and asks for Emmy and swoons over his every move. It is the cutest thing and I can’t tell you how many times it’s made me and my husband emotional. She really is such a sweet little girl and we couldn’t be more proud to call her ours. And so my heart continues to expand with Peyton Mae.
And last, and most important, there’s my husband, Brett, the person I fall even more in love with every child and every day that passes by. I remember getting so emotional after Peyton was born because of his constant love and affection towards me and his selflessness during her first couple of months of life. He truly has a servant’s heart and this second time around is constantly doing EVERYTHING for me, always making sure I feel okay physically and emotionally. He is my rock and the foundation of our family and every time I see him playing on the floor with Peyton or holding our newest Emmy, I can’t help but think how grateful I am to live this life with him. And so my heart continues to expand with my husband.
These next couple of weeks, I look forward to finding more reasons to love my family and trying my best to balance everything – that’s been the hardest part by far! My husband will continue to have time off and it’s been the best time being the four of us. Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers, I can’t tell you how much they mean to me. Things may be slow on the blog, but I hope to get back to a regular schedule soon.